Saturday, April 10, 2010

Back to the theatre

So I'm acting in a play with a theatre group. Finally! When my friend asked me if I would act in a play for children he was directing I had to say yes. This may be my last chance!

We began rehearsals on Friday. It was great. Even though I need to take three buses to get to rehearsal I am so grateful for this. I know the travel will bug me and I will be very tired soon but I must do this.

I can tell already that this process is going to be a difficult one. The play will be improvised from stories from the actors childhoods... ahem... that means the director constantly asks us to bring in stories from our childhood... which means I need to start digging up things from the past. So its going to be an interesting experience for sure.

I think I am more aware this time round and may be able to deal with it better. So lets see. :)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Another Phase

So... I'm quitting work again. :) I realized that I didn't want to spend the rest of my life doing this kind of job and so why waste time on it now. I think I need to focus on something that I want to build my skills and abilities in. Right now I'm not sure what that is... but all I can think of now is quilting. You can see what I've been upto on the new blog... Quilting in India. I've only just begun but the truth is nothing else is holding my attention! I close my eyes and I see patterns. I am checking on fabric all the time. I wish I had studied textile design. There is so much I don't know.

It's a whole new start. I've been meaning to quilt for many years now, have read up stuff, watched videos, bought books, even tried my hand at a few blocks... but now I want to work on it more. Is it crazy for me to start something at 30? I have so much to learn and so much to do! Then again Roz Savage started rowing after she was 33... and I know another lady who started learning Bharatanatyam at 36! So its never too late?

I'm tired of organizations and companies and hierarchies. I don't want to play that game. I want to live free, and do work that I enjoy and love, and be creative, and be happy. I don't care about promotions, and designations, and climbing up the ladder. Damn the ladder! Why should we all get into line and follow dreams that someone else created for us? Why should we live in worlds that we had nothing do with? And rules that we don't agree with? There's got to be another way. There's got to be.

I know the "real world" is not that simple and being in the position I am (no loan, no children, no major responsibilities, and a husband with an income) I can take this leap. It's not easy. A lot of strings need to be tightened and we won't be able to do everything we'd like to... but if I don't do this now, I will regret it all my life.

This is not Sabbath Rest like the last time. :) This is an exploration of another world. To see if another world is possible.

Wish me luck! :)