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Highlights from 2015

I like making these lists every year. Helps me remember.

Turned 35! Half way to 70! I fell ill on my birthday so we didn't do anything fantastic. We did have a quiet brunch and chatted. Went to the Toronto Symphony Orchestra for a Mozart recital. Went to a Dance Dance Party Party session. It was amazing! Need to go more next year. Joined the Toronto Modern Quilt GuildFinished some quilt topsMade a quilt for JadynMade table toppers as gifts for the familyHad a sewing day with Sarah at the store. Went to a couple of TMQG sewing days. Learned that Creative people need to CreateTook Lisa Congdon's class on Creative BugTook the How to Design Fabric class on Creative BugWatched Cirque du Soleil's VarekaiWent to a U2 ConcertCame across this quote: Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive. -  Howard ThurmanTasted baklava all the way from TurkeyTasted Japanese green-tea crepe cakeTried to…

Spadina Museum

I love old houses. Visiting the Spadina Museum has been on my list for a while now. Glad I finally did it. I don't know why these things get put aside for so long. It's not an expensive tour. Maybe I wanted to go with Bryan and it didn't quite work out. These days are go alone if I want to. A friend did go with me but I was all set to go alone. It's very freeing.

Drawing, je t'aime

I have been teaching myself to draw these past few months so I was excited to see the Drawing, je t'aime exhibition at the AGO. Now that I am learning to observe and understand lines, shapes and forms it was wonderful to see that drawings of the masters.

More on this on my Happy Turtle Designs Blog: Drawing, je t'aime

We also became members at the AGO so I'm looking forward to spending time there next year! :)

Something Happened

From my notebook:
At the AGO
December 23, 2015

I'm looking at Jane Martin's Something Happened.
I looked at the drawings first. They seemed to be of a man who was ill and fading away. I felt a little anxious. I thought, "Oh... this is not good". I read the title - Something Happened - and I knew this work was about grief and loss. And instantly I was transported to my own. To the hospital room where my father died, to the tubes, and his own fading away. I felt my chest tighten and my hands tingle.

The artist took polaroids of her husband during his illness and many years later she drew these drawings. And many years later I sit in front of her drawings at an Art Gallery and my own grief from my father's death 11 years ago is unbearable. 
We have this in common, the artist and I. We have both watched and cared for a loved one as they died slowly. I remember my father's body - how it became only bare bones and skin to keep his form in space. His white strong t…

Courage in 2015

My theme for 2015 was Courage. 
I was a little afraid to take this on. There are no easy ways to learn life's lessons and I wasn't sure what I would have to deal with to learn it. Thankfully nothing crazy. I did have major abdominal surgery this year so I think that's something. I've never had surgery before and I think I dealt with it well. I was calm and good to my caregivers. And smiled through it. So that was good.

I didn't pursue courage as intentionally as I would have liked to - I often lost sight of it. I had a pretty rough winter in the beginning of the year and that threw me off.

I am affected by the change of seasons and winter 2015 was very difficult for me. I went into the year somewhat hopeful but was faced with a lot criticism and judgement from the past. It was also a busy semester for Bryan so I didn't see much of him. I think I got very lonely and sad and questioned my life, my work, and my dreams. I do this on a regular basis but it got real…

A Moment Earlier this Year

I should have blogged about this when it happened. I want to however write about it now so I don't forget it happened.

We were at the Rock Eucharist earlier this year at The Church of the Redeemer and the Wine Before Breakfast Band was playing and they featured the music of Tracy Chapman.

We were a little late but they were playing Talkin' Bout A Revolution when we walked in.

Later Sylvia Keesmaat spoke and I felt like she was speaking to me. When did you stop talking about a revolution she said. When did you get so worn out by it that you stopped.

I wish I had a recording of her sermon or I had blogged about this earlier.

She made me see that I was not the only one despairing. She made me see that we needed to keep talking, keep working. keep believing.

They played Start All Over.

I can't remember the details but at one point during the service I felt like God was holding my face, and telling me it was ok. Telling me that the dark night of the soul had passed, that he w…

Black Cloud by Carlos Amorales

I've been meaning to go to The Power Plant to check out their Visual Arts Exhibitions. I finally did and was very happy to see this one. It's a spectacular installation of 30,000 paper moths! It's stunning!
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